As of today, I have 3 forms of debt around my neck - a loan and two credit cards. In total, these are just shy of £10,000. Yet the only debt I can reliably explain is the loan, which now has a balance of 'only' £5,096.37.
So how I find myself in almost double that? I have nothing to show for it.
In order to completely understand my financial situation and change my mind-set towards debt positively and permanently, I decided to undertake the depressing task of analysing where this debt had come from.
Debt #1 - The Loan
This is the easy one, in April 2013 I had a car accident which saw my car being written off. Luckily the accident was fully covered under my insurance, unluckily I had unpaid finance.
After receiving the insurance pay out and settling the outstanding finance, I found myself in a deficit of £500ish (it could've been a lot worse!). However, at that time I was commuting to work and my daily round journey clocked up 160 miles! I found myself without a car, and with no savings to buy a new one.
Sensibly, I decided against another round of car finance - I had learnt my lesson from the car I'd written off - the interest was ridiculous and I was paying £180 per month for 5 years which resulted in me paying over £10k for a car marked up at £6,500 when I purchased it in 2010.
Instead, I decided to take out a loan: my bank could offer me £8,000 with an APR of 6.4% over 36 months. Unsensibly, I opted for this amount and purchased my new car for £5,000; I used the remainder to clear the finance deficit and to pay for tax for the year. The rest, unfortunately was squandered and I have no recollection of what on!
Debt #2 - Credit Card (I have transferred some of this onto a 0% deal so now have 2 cards but am not paying interest on a chunk)
I've analysed my spends on this card for the past year (as far as online statements will allow). To be honest, the results are shocking:
| Cash |
£1,250.00 |
| Clothes |
£127.54 |
| Debt |
£2,405.97 |
| Dog |
£74.59 |
| Fee |
£66.37 |
| Gift |
£1,365.71 |
| Groceries |
£279.14 |
| Home |
£689.12 |
| Insurance |
£384.27 |
| Interest |
£621.44 |
| Ipad |
£223.00 |
| Misc |
£11.94 |
| Petrol |
£321.67 |
| Subscription |
£89.94 |
| Takeaway |
£31.30 |
| Travel |
£39.40 |
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£7,981.40
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I am absolutely gobsmacked at how much money I have wasted, and where my debt actually originates. I thought I would (ashamedly) explain these figures.
Cash - £1,250.00 - I am 100% against taking cash off a Credit Card, unfortunately personal circumstances found myself and my sister on the verge of homelessness, due to my wage I am not entitled to any form of government help and so private renting was our only option. We didn't have any savings and so I withdrew cash of my card to pay for the bond and months rent up front.
Debt - £2,405.97 - this is debt brought forward - it was accumulated by me and my ex, unfortunately when we split he refused to pay his share. I have no idea what it's for but I am lumbered with it.
Gifts - £1,365.71 - this is horrifying, how can I justify spending this kind of money on other people? I paid £637.50 for a piece of sporting memorabilia (stupid, stupid, stupid woman!) for my ex's 30th birthday - we split before his birthday and consequently this is gathering dust in my attic. £538.16 is on various gifts for my current boyfriend for valentines day/Christmas. £148 was for a bracelet for my sister's 21st bithday
Fees & Interest - £450.64 - money down the drain.
Home - £689.12 - we needed a lot of things when we moved into our flat, the most expensive item was my bed but we also needed crockery, iron & ironing board, pots and pans, curtains, towels etc etc.
Groceries & Petrol - £600.81 - absolutely should not have been paid for by Credit Card, must be covered by monthly budget.
Ipad - £223.00 - I can't justify this, it was a reckless and unnecessary purchase, the only saving grace being that I will get a considerable amount of use out of it when I resume studying in September
Insurance - £384.27 - My car insurance for the year, it made sense to me at the time - no monthly DD, however, I know that this should've been budgeted for and paid out of savings.
I feel completely and utterly ashamed by this breakdown, I have been an absolute idiot where spending is concerned. This will stop here.